Well, actually... I'm going to MAKE time for it. I need something to help keep me accountable, motivated and successful on this journey to better fitness. In most recent years I've considered myself a healthy person, at a healthy weight. I worked out every day, and not just little workouts. Hardcore (to me) stuff like CrossFit, Masters Swimming, Running. Until one day I didn't. I made a big move. I got injured. I got depressed. I stopped being motivated. I had a midlife crisis. I got very busy with work, kids, house. I started letting my injury be an excuse for my inactivity. It's strange how fast it happened... I went from being addicted to the workout high, feeling pretty "off" if I didn't get my exercise that day to making excuses and being lazy. Eating way too much junk, nibbling off the kids plates, having a little too much wine. Ok... a lot too much wine.
A while back, I put up a full length floor to ceiling mirror in my room. You know, so I can see the whole outfit, shoes included. Well... I saw myself as I was walking out the door and did a double take. I could NOT believe my eyes! THAT is what everyone following me sees?! Mirror mirror on the wall...who's got the largest backside of them all???
Who is this person?
Well, it's me. Unfortunately in this moment. And I've already been here before. I've lost the weight and been super fit (for me). I guess that's why it's strange to think that I'm right back here again. The difference now, however, is that I'm able put my experience to good use. Take my own medicine and move forward. This is just as much a mental challenge as it is a physical one for me.
This blog is intended to do just that. To hold me accountable.
I'm normally a very private person. I don't post full body pictures of myself. Well, I'm going to change that starting now. I have to accept who I am and what my body looks like now in order to realize not only what I want to change, but what I appreciate. This body made children. It's carried me thru a lot of trauma. And I can look at old photos and see that the potential is there! And I can remember how I felt then! Makes me want to eat a pack of cookies... I mean go workout! It's not going to be easy for me to click the "post picture" button, but I'm going to do it anyway so that I can track my progress, encourage myself with changes I see. So you have been warned...in the words of Melissa McCarthy, "look away, LOOK AWAY!" if you have to. (that lady is best!)
My goal is a weekly pictures. Hopefully daily updating with what kind of day I'm having, tidbits of things about me or things I like. Nothing too exciting. But who knows... maybe someone else out there like me feels the same way, and we can encourage each other :)
I'm not going to post weight at the moment. Not only because I'm too shy right now, but also because I like going by the fit of my clothes and inches. I weigh a lot when I'm thin, and gain muscle quickly, so it's not a good judge of fitness for me. Maybe I'll do body fat percentage. Maybe I'll have enough "MOXIE" and change my mind later.
July 29, 2012
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Here goes nothing. ~A
Did I tell you already how scary it is how similar we are??? LOL
ReplyDeleteI too lost a great deal of weight (after my third kid)then got in a MVA and got lazy, fell out of my physically active routine and gained a lot MORE weight back. It wasn't until I began feeling better that I decided, "Forget this! I'm getting my old body back!" (minus the stretch marks, hehehe).
I am so proud of you for taking charge! And just so you know...you look AWESOME! I wish I had the courage to show the world my stomach but mine looks NOTHING like yours, my dear beautiful friend. ;)
Oh thank you so much for your support Kalurah! I was seriously SO nervous posting this. I love how similar we are. Its awesome to have someone in my life that I relate to so much. YOU are an inspiration to me, with all you accomplish and everything you are :)
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